A Confession
Hello all!
First of all, I'm Dave. A middle aged dad who is potentially hitting a mid-life crisis. Instead of having an affair or buying a sports car, I'm getting into gaming.
But, I have a confession to make. Are you ready? Are you sitting down?
I'm a fake gamer.
There. I admit it. I enjoy video games, but honestly not for reasons many people do. I love a TTRPG, but only like, surface level know what I'm doing.
I'm in it for the story. I like being on a journey through a game which makes me actually experience it. That's what has drawn me to RPGs.
You know what I hate about gaming? Character creation. I just zip through that and want to get to the game. I play video games on easy because I don't want the challenge, I want the story.
So then, why did I decide to write a TTRPG? I am asking myself that a lot lately. I have an idea, I love it, and something in my mind has been sparked that has not been there for what has felt like decades.
Passion.
Of course, this undertaking is making me realize just how little effort I've put into anything creative my whole life. Or, in all honesty, most things (is this what therapy is like??).
I'm realizing I've always focused on broad strokes, 20,000 foot high views of the worlds I've been creating in my writing, but never got into the nitty gritty.
I'm seeing my resistance to actually creating a character for whatever RPG I'm playing as a mirrored reflection to never creating characters with depth in my old writings.
I'm realizing, above all, most of my nerd-dom is mostly surface level.
But, I truly believe in the concept I want for my TTRPG.
And for once, I'm deciding to actually put in the hard work and effort to do it right. To get into the details. To make this as fun and beautiful as it can be.
Until I see something shiny.
I've started this blog to document and share my trials and tribulations of going from practically no knowledge to, with any hope, building an enjoyable TTRPG campaign with balanced mechanics and fun encounters.
And I'll complain about it on here along the way so you all can share in my pain joy of discovery!
So, buckle in. Sit tight. And prepare to be infrequently updated on my experiences!